One Little Word 2015

For the past several years, I have been participating in Ali Edward’s One Little Word Project.  It’s a year long project with monthly prompts.  I began in 2011 with “Nurture”, then two years of “Organize”.  I could do a lifetime of organize!  Last year was “Embrace”.  This is my fifth year, and I have yet to get further along than doing the January prompt.

January OLW

Once again, my January page!  Although I never get past January, I do keep the word in my mind all year.  Last year’s “Embrace” was the perfect word.  It was a tough year, and I had a new life to embrace.  This year, I’m ready to explore!

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In my mind, I’ve sort of divided my life into thirds.  Believe it or not, I gave this a good bit of thought, e.g. divided in fourths gave me too little time left, divided in half gave me too much, and divided into anything else was too complicated.  I’m beginning a new phase, and this year I’m concentrating on exploring what this third phase of my life might look like.

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In addition to Ali’s January scrapbooking prompt, I also have a physical version of my word.  No idea how she does it, but Colleen Attara makes these custom words from recycled plastic.  She calls them salvaged words.  When it arrived, I was surprised to find that not only did she send me a big EXPLORE to hang where I’ll see it often, but also this smaller one.  Her packaging was so cute — it included the little sewn tag above and a sweet note.

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Will I go further than the January prompt this year?  Can you teach an old dog new tricks?  Let’s explore that idea!

Embrace

“Embrace” is my word for 2014.  It seemed perfect since I have so many new situations to embrace in my life.  In the last three years I have participated (using that word very loosely) in Ali Edwards’ One Little Word.  I was always faithful for at least the first month, as you can see here, and here, and here.  Nothing up yet for 2014 — I can’t seem to get going on it.  And of course, the Focus on Life challenge which I did last week, now a minimal color self photo.   And various other things for which I have signed up — life goes on.  Or so they say.

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Ten days.  People expect you to grieve for ten days.  People call, visit and bring food for ten days.  I think of myself as a strong person, and I think most people I know think of me that way too.  Sure I can understand the confused and disoriented widows that I see in my accounting practice — their husband took care of everything and they have never been alone.  Me?  I’ve lived alone, and enjoy the quiet solitude.  There is very little around the house that I can’t do or find someone to do.  I knew our finances; I did our tax return.  No problem.

I planned a visitation and funeral.  I wrote thank you notes.  I set everything necessary in motion for an estate.  I sorted, tossed, filed, donated, stored — from early morning until I collapsed at night.  I traveled to south FL to visit with his elderly father.  Sure there were a few quirky things that I struggled to do.  But slowly, I marked them off my list.  After all, it’s been almost three months.  Connie is fine — she’s strong.  Not taking new clients, and even letting go of a few was my plan to make up for me maybe not being quite up to par.

This week, I discovered — Connie isn’t fine.  My dear, dear friend — my college roommate, wrote me a note talking about grief since she had experienced the sudden and unexpected death of her brother years ago.  She said she read everything she could on grief.  I, who buys a book about anything that comes to mind, had never thought to get a book.  Maybe I don’t know anything about grief and should read a bit.

As I read and cried, I saw myself in the book.  My exhaustion which no amount of sleep overcomes.  My exhaustion which had made me think that swift death is surely on my heels too.  The scenarios that go through my mind — if he had called, if he had stayed home, I know I could have saved him.  He would have had more years; we could have done the things we had planned.  My inability to multi-task  How easily I am overwhelmed with things that once were mere irritations.  Simply put, I’m not fine.

Grief isn’t something that one decides whether or not to do, I’ve learned.  There is no time limit.  Embrace is after all the perfect word for 2014.  And the first thing that I need to embrace is grief.  In time, I hope to embrace much more, but for now, I’m going to be gentle (this is tough for me) and give myself time to heal.

One Little Word – January

I finished my January assignment for Ali Edward’s One Little Word, and it’s still January!  Since I’m learning all of these scrap-booking things, I don’t venture too far away from the instructions.  It said to hand write something about your intentions on the cards.  Not happy with the results.  I’m fighting that “P” word, so I’ll let it go.  Also, there isn’t enough time in the day to do it again.  Note the bottom right block — it’s the little pencil drawing I did for my Records for the IRS e-course.  I used it as a picture of myself.

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Page two.  And how cute are these tiny staples from my new Tim Holtz’s stapler. Tim Holtz Idea-Ology Tiny Attacher-With 100 Tiny S

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I randomly put months with the intentions.  I have no idea which to start with first.  Maybe I’ll just work on them together and then they will all be miraculously organized at the end of the year.  What needs to be organized in your life?

One Little Word 2013

A new year.  A new word.  I’m participating in Ali Edwards One Little Word class.  I participated (using that term VERY loosely) in 2012 and 2011.  You can read about it here and here.  This year I hope to actually get past the January assignment.  I try to incorporate my word into my life throughout the year; it’s just those assignments that I don’t complete.  And they are fun assignments.  It’s those P’s affecting me.

If you look back to 2012, you’ll see that I have the same word in 2013.  You should pick a new work each year, but I just couldn’t do it.  I tried.  Organize was shouting loudly and clearly to me!  So, organize it is . . . again.  Last year I said that by organize, I didn’t mean a closet.  But I organized my clothes closet in 2012 and it felt good.  Really good.  Same word, but I’m approaching it in a different manner.  And Ali Edwards’ new prompts are perfect.

We’re to use our word in numerous ways.  A different way for each month.  Perfect.  Although, most people aren’t doing anything quite as practical as I am attempting.

1.  Organize my organizing!  Enough said.

2.  Organize my money.  I know where every penny comes from and goes in my business.  Personally, I don’t have a clue.  I’m going to find out this year.

3.  Organize my computers/iphone/ipad.  I need to do a lot of file archiving, cleaning up and of course, BACKING UP!

4.  Organize food and recipes.  Tax season is an extra difficult time to eat healthy.  It’s not just the time to prepare, it’s that age old “what’s for dinner?”  My mind only thinks in terms of taxes — I’m useless in the kitchen.  Need a plan now.

And the list goes on and on for 12 organizing items.  I’m sure you’ll hear about them as the year goes on.

Choosing a word is a wonderful way to set intentions for the year.  Our little Fly Tribe has a whole blog hop about it.  Visit some sites — I think you’ll enjoy it.  What’s your word for 2013?