A Year of Thought

For almost a year, I have been in thought.

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It hasn’t been that I was unhappy or sad — well, of course, I was sad some days, but not all days.  A fog surrounded me.  I did my regular things in a fog.  I thought that if it were not for the fog, I could think more clearly.  I thought about it.  And when I finally put my finger on it, I realized that joy was missing.  I thought I might never feel it again.  What would life look like?  I thought about it.

I felt that I needed a plan for the future.  And I thought about it.  I sat outside this summer enjoying the quiet and the solitude; nothing but birds chirping and my thoughts.  What would the next phase of my life look like?  I thought about it.  I couldn’t picture it, unless it was a continuation of my routines, work, etc.  I would continue to exist.

As the fog cleared, I realized that I want to live, not just exist.  That I need to create this next phase of my life.  Can I picture it?  No.  But I’m stepping out of my comfort zone, and I’m determined to live.  A year is long enough to think about it.

Exploring and trying new things are filling my days.  Getting back to writing on this blog is part of my exploration.  My heart is aflutter.  I can hardly wait to share with you all of the things that I’m doing.

 

 

Comments

  1. Welcome back, Connie! <3

  2. I am so grateful that you are on your way to the other side. I can’t wait to hear all that you are doing.

  3. So many people just exist, but to really live and enjoy each day, is a choice. I’m looking forward to reading about you for this year.

  4. Thank you, Constance, for your honesty and openness. It takes a lot to look at yourself, then look past yourself, and move forward- especially through the fog. But I’m glad the fog has lifted and I look forward to hearing more about your journey to discovering yourself and your purpose in the coming year.

    I also would like to thank you. I took your e-course “Simply My Harvest” a few years ago when I was first starting up my business and it truly was a blessing. It moved me out of my own fog and confusion about what I needed to know to set up my business. You made the mountain seem climb-able. Thank you for your wisdom and guiding light!

  5. I’m so happy to hear that you are stepping out of the fog and are ready to think of creating the next phase of your life. Wising you much comfort and love along the way. xo

  6. Thanks for this lovely and honest post. I just needed to read this today . So happy you have the desire to live not only exist. That is also my wish!!

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